Memorial Day Weekend mama and I went north for several days. We had it very rough - we had to stay in a log home designed and built by my brother. As you can tell it is just made out of simple ordinary trees from the woods. Look at the floor - what kind of wood is it? And what is unique about it? I will explain later.
Now let me talk about this log home. This home is not a log cabin kit. He didn't buy the wood from a lumber yard. He went to the woods with a portable saw mill and cut and sized the wood to fit where he needed. Different types of wood for different areas. Some hard wood (Oak, Maple, Birch, etc.) and some soft woods (Pine, fir, etc.). Each log that was used for the outside structure was cut from a tree by my brother over a period of a several years. I believe there are over 200 logs used for the main structure. Probably more.
The kitchen counter is 3 pieces that he cut and put together. The kitchen cabinets were pieces of wood that he took to a professional cabinet maker that used his skills to make a beautiful set of kitchen cabinets.
Curious question - God created you. He wants you to have fellowship with you and for you and I to serve others. How are you doing? Did you know you are unique and that each of us have a special purpose? Well you say; "I have ruined my life with bad choices, some which have even physically been destructive." So what???!! Give what you have, even if you think it is useless.
Oh yes, I almost forgot the floor. Have you guessed what kind of wood? What is unique about it? Most of the floor wood is a hard wood - a wormy Red Maple. Thats right, wormy, defective wood. As the tree grew worms got in it and lived throughout the tree "destroying" what the tree really was "suppose" to be. As a result the worms "scarred" the wood inside through and through. What was thought by the tree to be defective actually created a beautifully designed wood pattern prized by those who work with hard wood.
So maybe you are defective, maybe you think your flaws limit you. God created you and He wants to use you just as you are. Why not right now whisper a prayer that He will take what you are and give it to him to be a blessing to many others. He (heart) you! After all, He died for you so you can live!